Monday, July 02, 2007

Crossroads


Why is it that it is so difficult for us to change.

I’m sure every person knows his/her weaknesses. We all are aware what is it about is which annoys others, pains them. Even if we remove the concern about what the world thinks of us, there would still be issues with you which affect the lives and happiness of people who matter to you. Your habit of smoking which troubles your asthmatic roommate can be one. Then why are we not able to change our negatives, to help ourselves and make the life of people who matter better. No matter how many self help books prophesies it, and how many times we look at the mirror, something inside us drives the need to stay as we are. What makes changing such a difficult process, even when we know it is for the better. Is it plain old EGO. Or ignorance. Or when it comes to moving out of our set ways, they fuse.

How many times do we use our personality as an excuse to avoid changing. I can remember many such times, when I just said, ‘ This is the way I am. Live with it ‘ and refused to change. Where do you draw the line? When do you stop looking for a partner to accept you as you are – and decide that you as you are is not good enough, even for you.

Is it that difficult to realize the difference between changing for pleasing others and becoming better.

For me, I am at a crossroad. I have to decide – would I change to save what I have or would I embrace the changes taking me to the future. I don’t know what my process or criteria. All I can try to do is leave me behind, hold my life in my palms and set it free. It’s High Time.




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